Nature is awakening, leaves are coming back: An update about life, music and gratitude

Above: Spring awakening in the forest just a few weeks ago.

Hello my sweet friends,
It feels a bit like a dream to write this after all the quiet I’ve spent away from internet I am so sorry I have neglected you, but I'm back after a short break and here to tell you the reason why. You all know I often take little breaks but I always find my way back too. In all honesty last couple of years have been very challenging and I still need to take time off to deal with some storms behind the screen :) Some of you even reached out. I’m doing well. I cannot say it hasn’t been uneventful, health continues to challenge me but I'm now adding that into the equation.
I confess I have worried that people might stop supporting me or that the silence would let the news slip by unnoticed. I haven’t been idle, and surprisingly I find myself both inspired and exhausted. It’s a delicate balance whenever I can finally set aside time for creation. Right now, more than ever, I feel the urgency to finish what’s been sitting on the shelf for far too long. This little update also have some recent pictures

Above: Grounding in the forest

Spring is here and around this time, every year, I finally waking up from a long hibernation now that days are longer and the air is already changing. I love Spring, there’s a warm and faint scent of flowers when I walk. Growth time... Nature's lesson.

flowers in the forest floor

I’ve been grinding on a lot of new music and organizing projects that were stalled (like Fear no More, an album that was almost completed but never released in 2016). The amount of songs in my folders start to be a bit overwhelming, and I've decided to let them fly, whether or not they're eventually compiled into the album itself. I definitely I'm becoming aware of my struggles to "finish" things. I can start 500 songs but my over perfectionism has prevented me from making them "official". Some of the songs on youtube should be on streaming as well. I feel everything needs to be dusted off already. It's not an easy task, remixing, remastering, recording new vocals, updating. And meanwhile there are new songs spawning in my head, it never ends, XD. Ask @hedac he's mad at me because I have hundreds of folders of unfinished songs (I'm not even joking, ha ha ha, I may have a problem)

I’m carving out that space to breathe, to let the tracks settle in the quiet before I shout them out again. But some are getting their feathers to fly.

A feather in the forest I found the other day. It reminded me of pet hens who passed away already. The white feather reminds me specially of Henrietta, one of the latest to go.

I'm spending more time at the studio, finally with more focus. It’s a small, private victory that keeps my mind from spiraling back into panic. Health has been and remain complicated and I now adapt to a new gentler pace and I'm deeply grateful to my patrons here, because we are indeed a small family, but your help translate into tangible support like updating gear.

Playing a mountain dulcimer made by a friend (Ron Ewing) who recently passed away

As I said at the beginning of the post I was legit very worried people would think I was inactive. I didn’t want to keep you in the dark, but I also needed a break to recharge, and the longer it took, the harder it became to get back online. The truth is, the silence is the most honest thing I’ve ever done. I want to return with something that feels authentic, something that feels like it’s come from the heart. I'm working in a set of songs (they won't be among the first being released) but I've not been this excited about new music in quite a while. I had missed that feeling.

Another thing that’s been bothering me a lot is of AI in music and art. It’s a scary thought when you’re a human artist, how am I meant to compete when a machine can make a song in seconds? But I keep hearing the voices of my supporters, and that reminds me why I started making music in the first place: to connect, to be vulnerable, to share a piece of myself. A machine cannot take my soul. I know some of you, my patrons here are artists on their own merit, writers, poets, illustrators... so I'm pretty sure you resonate with this.
I feel I'm going to film more about the works in progress, because that is now what human artists can provide.

Above, my untidy corner, writing lyrics the old fashioned HUMAN way :)

So thank you, all of you. I’m still here, just not as loud. I’m putting out new music, learning new things, and healing in a quieter way.

Some hightlights of 2026 so far

Here some impressions of my recent hikes in the grove. I hope to spend more time grounding again in Nature.

Here some highlights of my little corner of the world this February and March, just before life reawakens.

I cannot hike as far as I used to for now, but Spring is blooming and light is returning, and Nature is always the heart of my music as you know. It never fails to bring comfort.

Learning new things

While I was away, I also started learning Chinese. It is the country where I have more listeners (mostly, my song Flame) but there has always been a language barrier. So after having sung songs in Japanese, Latvian, Icelandic, Finn, Spanish and English I thought about recording a traditional one in Chinese, but as it is a tonal language pronunciation is tricky is a gentle distraction from the endless stream of news that keeps us all on edge. I have recorded a short version of "Mo li Hua" (Jasmine flower) that I will share soon. I've also been trying to improve my production skills and learn new techniques. Trying new things is fun.

Though my original music will remain the top priority, these shorter, more candid pieces give me a chance to share new material more regularly between my official releases and for those I'm a perfectionist and take longer. They're fun and they're also a good exercise.

Isn't the world so crazy right now? Thanks for the music... my rock in the storm as I always call. I'd rather watch the flowers bloom. I hope this little update also encourages to go out, hug a tree, and tune out the noise a little.

Longing to bloom
Unfolding into the sun
Gilded by Light
I'm fire

(from my song "Longing to bloom")