But first, we'll hide.
I'm no great adventurer, and between you and me, I get a little clumsy when I venture too far into the wild. Somewhere down the path, or slightly off it, a switch activates that seems to turn things around me topsy-turvy. But I like to get out in nature as much as I can, which is different than being out and about in the city, here.
Because it smells like nature and people shut the fuck up. Which, you know, is kinda nice.
I went away this weekend. Just for a minute, just for a beat, but it was enough. To hide for a tiny second. To be free.
I've been getting better at it. Being quiet. Not outward, but also in my head. I used to talk a whole lot. Used to drive me crazy. Still does. But I'm learning to put aside things that aren't a pressing concern, that have been thought through already, which isn't as easy as it sounds.
Recalibrating.
A period of recalibration is needed after most momentous transitions. When a change begins suddenly, it's tempting to rush to the opposite pole. It might even be helpful. To an extent. You embrace certain words and ideas wholesale, and that's good for the moment.
I don't think I could've traversed some areas if I hadn't taken some ideas and philosophies for good. But now, having come out, I'm reevaluating. Toning down certain phrases. Letting go of ideas and judgments that weren't perfectly aligned with my own.
When you seek out victimhood, you make yourself a victim. And while healing is a wonderful thing to cultivate, it can also sometimes keep you sick. You can't keep healing if you stop being sick, right?
Well, you can. But it's much trickier.
Some days, you need to sit inside the woods for a little while and stop healing. Stop living inside your story for a moment. It's a secret reset button.
This feels like a word of advice to me
That’s awesome
Thanks for sharing
It's really important to just be, to be fully present and let all the BS just slip away. Those moments are magic, being in nature always helps me to achieve this. I'm happy to see you have found some time for it. Don't ever resist your own wildness xxx
I've never agreed with the victimhood mindset. Everyday I remind myself that I am not a victim. This is a wonderful piece
Nature reminds us we are nature.
We are born, we die. Things regenerate and rot. It is the way of things.
God Europe is busy. How do you guys ever find space to be alone without someone suddenly jumping into your spot in the woods?
We don't. Kidding. But also not :D There are places off the beaten path, but it's definitely a different, more crowdy vibe than other places, right?
Yeah, it makes me feel glad for Australian space!!