FIL-ENG | Indelible Moment

The warmth it gives in my heart, the shivers in my spine, the happiness I feel whenever I see you, and those cute little giggles that make your eyes more adorable - I fell into such an incidental trap. So sweet yet so painful too.

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Ang tulang ito ay para sa'yo, Anna
-Juan.

Tandang-tanda ko pa
Yung araw na nasilayan ko ang iyong mukha
Sa aking pagkadapa, tila'y swinerte pa
Pinagtawanan man ng iba, puso ko nama'y iyong napasigla.

This poem is for you, Anna
-Juan

I can still remember so well
The day I saw your face
When I was on my knees, it seemed like I was still lucky
Even though others laughed, my heart still warmed.

Tila biglang tumigil ang mundo
Tumibok ng mabilis ang aking puso
Hindi ko maintindihan pero tila ako'y agad na nainlababo
Saksi ang mga puno sa araw na ito.

The world seemed to have suddenly stopped turning
I can hear my heart's fast beating
I don't understand, but I seem to fall on you
The trees are witnesses on this day; I knew.

Ako'y pumasok sa klase na masaya
Halos isang oras din akong natulala
Mas lalo pa akong sumigla
Noong uwian na't tayo'y muling nagkita.

I went to class elated
For almost an hour, I was astounded
I became more enthusiastic
When we met again after the class.

Habang ika'y humahakbang palayo
Sayo lang nakatingin ang mga mata ko
Sa iyong pagsakay sa kalesa
Ganon na lamang ang pagkagusto kong maging kutsero.

As you walk toward the aisle
My eyes are only looking at you
On your chariot ride
How I wish to be the coachman.

Tila iba talaga ang ihip ng hangin
Sa kakalakad, sa plaza nakarating
Sa hindi sinadsayang pagkakataon
Nakita kitang muli sa may fishball'an habang kumakain.

The wind seems to be blowing differently
After walking, I arrived at the plaza
In an unexpected destiny
I saw you again at the fishball stall while eating hapilly.

Muli, ang mga puno sa paligid ay naging saksi
Sa kung paano ako nagalak sa pangyayari
Naglakas loob na lumapit upang magpakilala
Habang nasa ilalim ng nagliliwanag na ilaw ng poste.

Again, the surrounding trees bear witness
How I rejoiced in such a particular occurrence
Gained the courage to come forward to introduce myself
While you are under the glowing light pole.

Napatingin ka at ako nama'y ngumiti
Lumapit ka at ang aking kaba'y biglang napawi
Iwinagayway mo ang iyong kamay, at ganon din ako
Lumapit ang isang tao at hinagkan ka, at doon ko na lang napagtanto.

You looked, and my smile beamed through
You came closer, and my nervousness suddenly faded
You waved your hand, and so did I
Someone came up and hugged you, and that made me concede.

Akala ko totoo na talaga ang mga pangyayaring ito
Pero sadyang imahinasyon lang pala ang lahat
Ako'y natauhan at bumalik sa wisyo
Habang ika'y napatawa ng kaunti, ako'y tumayo.

I thought these events were real
But it's all just imagination, not surreal
Finally, I came to my senses
While you laughed a little, I stood up.

Malapit na pero tila biglang lumayo
Masyado lang pala ako umasa
At tumalon ng maaga
Ngayon tuloy ay nagdurusa.

So close yet seemed so far
I just hoped too much
And jump early - so bizarre
Now I suffer, don't judge.

Kahit sa maliit lang na sandali, ako'y iyong napasaya. Masakit man ang naging wakas, ako nama'y nakatakas mula sa matagal na pagkakakulong sa kalungkutan kahit papaano. Ayoko mang umasa pero sana sa muli nating pagkikita, kung ipapahintulot ng tadhana, magiging tayo na talaga.

Even for just an indelible moment, you made me happy. The end may be painful, but I somehow escaped from the long imprisonment of sadness. I don't want to expect, but I hope that when fate allows us to meet again, we will now find each other's love for each other.