It is getting quite hard to keep smiling 👹🍣🎎 My Japan

Actually, I had assumed that we were all out of the woods and we would finally return to something like normality in our everyday lives. The children were at school and kindergarten again and I was back to work and thought I had left the sudden online work behind me and would be able to leave the house in the morning. The past week seemed as if everything was just getting back to normal.

Friday was public holiday and started with blue skies with lots of sunshine and temperatures of over 25 degrees, what more could you expect at the beginning of November? Of course, we jumped at the chance and went on a little excursion, something we really hadn't done enough of recently. But I could already feel the first signs in the morning, and in hindsight I probably should have stayed in bed despite the great weather.

My head was heavy and somehow I felt a little tired, but I didn't really want to admit it. I had been looking forward to our trip too much and I really didn't want to miss it. And with the beautiful weather, there was really no reason to stay at home, well actually....

After we finally set off , which as always took longer than planned, our first stop was at the beach side, where we frolicked a little before enjoying some self-made lunch in front of this beautiful scenery. The water was surprisingly warm, especially considering that it was already November. If I was alone and brought my swimwear, I would certainly have jumped into the waves and the sun above me would probably have loved seeing me there too.

After we had finally moved on, I realized again that something didn't seem quite right with me. Something was weighing on my head and also my mood, and somehow I just wanted to go back. But eventually we continued and I tried to keep my spirit up. But our walk through a well-known park was no longer easy for me. But at least the little ones had fun here as well, which was the most important thing.

The drive back was already some kind of torture and I already knew that I would be going to bed very early that day. When I got home, one of the first things I did was reach for the thermometer and my suspicions were immediately confirmed. A while ago I was rather sure that I would never get a fever, but this idea has been proven wrong quite often recently. The last time was just over a week ago, so this time I was quite disbelieving and a little shocked and annoyed. Apart from my heavy head, there were no other signs that I was ill again, but I guess my body thought otherwise.

As already mentioned, I was in bed very early and hoped that a good night's sleep would solve the problem. Unfortunately, neither the night's sleep turned out to be good, nor was the fever gone the next morning. At first it was more of a high temperature, but as the day progressed the thermometer rose again and now I'm already thinking about whether I can move my work back home on Monday. Fortunately, that's not impossible, but on the other hand I need to arrange quite some things, which is especially difficult at the weekend.

And to top it all off, just as I started this post, a piece of my tooth broke off. It may be a filling, but I either one is just too much for me now. Of course, there is nothing I can do about that at the weekend, so I have to run to the dentist very early on Monday morning and hope that until then I will at least be spared some toothache.

How great is that! The last few weeks have been really tough and the new month is starting just as stressful and exhausting as the last month showed itself for most of the time. I'm slowly losing my patience and I'm running out of good words to motivate myself all the time. I'm even starting to worry about what life has in store for us for the rest of the year. It doesn't seem to be good, although I don't want to give up hope.

But well, complaining doesn't help here either. For now, I'm keeping my fingers crossed that at least the rest of the family stays fine. We really can't afford any more losses, so it's best to grin and bear it. Maybe we can bribe and convince fate with our smiles, at least it's worth a try!