I am not OK
All we can do is stay strong
Man, I have no idea where to even begin. This past week has been a real whirlwind of emotions. A couple weeks ago, my wife's leg started to hurt pretty bad and we thought that she had just been working out too hard on it, so she quit running and tried to let it recover, but it just kept getting progressively worse.
The pain was getting worse just about each day, so she scheduled an appointment to see our doctor, but we had to wait a week or so to be seen. She went in for Xrays and it didnt look like there was anything wrong with the actual muscle or joint in her knee, so they scheduled an MRI because she was beginning to lose range of motion on her leg and the doctors let us know that she has a tumor on her femur.
Now being told that you have a tumor is scary enough, but then they told us that they want to wait a few months and get another MRI to see if it has grown. So we scheduled another appointment with a specialist to get another opinion. Over the last week, I watched my wife very quickly lose even more range of motion, to the point where she cannot even do certain stretches or yoga positions.
We have another appointment in a couple hours and hopefully we are able to get some answers and direction from here. We have no idea if it is cancerous or not. This whole waiting thing is probably the hardest part of everything. The pain in her leg seems to get worse each day, and seeing her lose the ability to do certain things is gut wrenching.
I really have no idea what I am going to try and accomplish with writing about any of this here on Hive, but one thing I have learned over the years is that writing is one of the best ways to lighten the burden, even if no one reads it.
Times like this really put life into perspective. Before we knew about the tumor, my wife started going to a clinic that administers ketamine in small doses to help with depression, anxiety and other trauma. It is a very interesting process and I think this was the perfect time for her to start it and the rest of our family will most likely take part in the procedures as well.
My wife and I have been through so much in our time together. It is crazy to think back through everything our marriage has endured. We are definitely at our strongest right now and I am grateful for that. I have no idea how much the future is going to cost us, but one thing is for certain, is that I am grateful for Hive and for the entire Hive community. If I didn't have Hive, the financial burden for the future would be crazy.
I think that is all for now. It is pretty exhausting to try and put my feelings into words right now. Hold your family tight.
Hopefully the MRI results will show that its nothing major and the tumour is benign. Fingers crossed, and sending positive vibes!!
We sure hope so. The waiting is the worst. This is the stuff they don't show in the movies
Fingers crossed!
Thank you.
This is painful news. I hope the best happens for you all, but it sounds like it’s going to be a long process of playing the waiting game.
I cannot imagine having to watch someone you love in pain like that and unable to do the things they enjoy most. Even though you feel normal, I’m sure her being bad off right now has your insides going crazy.
You two stay strong! And please update with what you all figure out. Your wife seems like a fighter to me & I believe in her to push through all of this.
Thank you. She is the strongest person I know. There is just so much that we want to do together, so we are going to do all we can to make sure we can.
Stay strong, you have to support your wife on these harsh days. BTW, she is so beautiful! I hope this is not cancer.
!LUV
@zirochka(1/1) gave you LUV.
tools | wallet | discord | community | <>< daily
HiveBuzz.me NFT for Peace
She is everything to me.
I feel you 💛 Hold.on!
My prayers are with you and your family.I have learned too how much writing can help.
Peace Brother
Thanks man
My friend, when I read this sad article, my eyes filled with tears. I have experienced similar things in my neighborhood.
But be strong! You will hear good news soon. I hope everything works out.
We are with you. I wish your wife good health.
Thank you. I am sorry that you have experienced similar situations.
It passed too quickly. We survived. Trust me, you'll get good news too. Otherwise, keep your spirits high. be good
Thank you
Family is really important no doubt, seeing our loved ones in pain can be frustrating. Sending love and hugs to you and your family, I pray your wife feels better soon 💖
Man, I'm so sorry to hear that. Your wife was also active on Hive for a while and it was a pleasure for me to read the sincere things she wrote. I hope you will get a clear result and that everything can be solved. Take care of yourself and please give her my best wishes for a speedy recovery. Stay strong. You are one of the best couples I have ever seen.
Thanks man. I appreciate it.
I'm sorry!!! It can be confusing at times... be strong for both of you.
We'll hope for the best.
Brother, what heartbreaking news, you are really in a very difficult situation, do not get discouraged and do not think negatively, the best thing to do is not to show your wife that fear and concern, you must show security so that she feels better and confident that she will get out of this, which of course she will get out of this, do not be discouraged either of you, you will see that soon your wife will get much better.
It is good to write publications because it is a method of venting, a way to generate a catharsis about the things that happen to us day by day, it makes us be a little calmer, do not lose hope or much less get sad, at this time your wife needs you with a positive attitude that you will just get out of this problem, much strength brother.
P.S.: your beard looks great, that mix of black and white looks great on you brother, greetings.
I'm sorry to hear about your wife and the pain that she's in. Like everyone has said, I hope it turns out to be not cancerous. Take care.❤
one of the worst things is not knowing. had some shitty roll of medical things this year and not knowing wtf is going on was the worst. lucky that it was nothing on this scale.
good luck with the scans, whish you all the best. Take care.
Thanks man, I appreciate it
My prayer is that it is not cancerous. I wish her divine healing from above. As the Almighty is the only doctor that know more than earthly doctors.
I don't remember the last time I read a full post but man, believe me, I've read each and every word of this post and I even reread some sentences.
I remember reading one of your posts long ago and that was about you getting a heart attack and now that I've read the title of this post, I just imagined something bad is happening to my dear brother.
I know how hard it is to see the loved ones suffer from something and as its a tumor and you need to wait to just know what can be a solution, the waiting period is surely harder than knowing the fact (in my sense).
I hope and pray your wife gets well soon and nothing worse happens.
I'm actually feeling a little sad about your wife.
I'm sorry to hear that you are both going through that man, I couldn't imagine the whirlwind of emotions and thoughts that are coursing their way through you..
If there is anything I have learned from Hive so far, is that writing is therapeutic, and just like you said, even if no one reads it. Just putting your thoughts and emotions out there in that state of vulnerability is a huge thing to do, and I'm glad that you are open enough to share what you are going through.
It has been a crazy year, and I can only hope and pray for you, and your wife, that everything will work out for the best. I hope you get some better news from this coming appointment, and just know you will both be in all of our thoughts and prayers, from my family to yours ♥️
Words can't express how sorry I am for you guys! This news is beyond terrible. Sometimes we just need to get our thoughts out there even if it's just in writing so we don't drive ourself crazy with them!
You guys are going to be in my thoughts and I hope everything goes well at the appointment.
Hard times indeed. Hopefully things work out well for you guys.
Sorry to hear. Holding my fingers crossed for you guys that it's not cancerous!
I'm so sorry to read this, of course you are not okay.
I know you all have been through so much these last few years.
You are right, it does help to write about these things.
I am sending you strength and love xxxxx
Wow guys what a story. I totally understand you getting more opinions because you want to know what the hell is going on and waiting is the worst!
Hoping for good outcomes, fingers crossed and much love sent for you both
...write the thoughts away...
Hoping the tumor is benign and that the removal will make her better ;;-;; because it definitely could be benign and it's just intrusive because the growth is affecting her blood circulation on the legs 😭
Praying she'll recover soon. I hope you guys get through this together
Even though I'm not in your situation, have been in a similar one and know how it feels to wait and not know what's going to happen. You feel like your head is going to explode and you go from one extreme to another.
Don't lose hope as there's always a way. Take care of your mental health as you need to stay strong. Fingers crossed and I wish you all the best.
tough things to deal with , those moments of waiting for results from MRI , stay strong
Life's a bitch and it's great to see you both fight through it with smiles. Sending you guys some positive vibes.
Wes, sorry to read this. I am completely sure that you will be able to overcome this situation and solve everything, while you wait you can only be optimistic and strong because there are also other reasons to fight for.
I love you. Best wishes to both of you my man.
That’s no fun in any way… sorry to hear that my friend.
Let’s hope and cross our fingers it isn’t bad and they can help her to get rid of the pain.
All the best wishes @derangedvisions 🤗 stay strong 🤞🏻🍀 sending healing and positive vibes.
We are here for you… and your family.
I wish you both great health!
I just spent 8 months of this year caring for my Dad with an unexpected (advanced) cancer. Sometimes people get annoyed with others telling them what to do about health, but at the same time I notice that very few people actually have any idea at all (sadly, often including Doctors/nurses).
I have a lot to say about cancer, but if I were in that position, the first thing I would be looking into is liposomal Vitamin C combined with lipoic acid. Non Toxic and from what I and many others have seen, it is effective at helping clear the body out and to build immune health and balance.
The Cancer Breakthrough is a decent book to give an overview of the topic. <- That link is for a 'free' ebook version.
There are many other ways to help the body find balance but each person is unique and needs to find the causes and solutions that will work for them.
<3
Thanks for the comment. At our appointment last night, the doctor assured us that this is not a cancerous tumor and that there really isnt anything to worry about. We have been looking into changing our diets a lot more and we have been supplementing different vitamins. I am going to look at that book and see what else we can do to really take our health back into our own hands since everything out there seems to be poison for our bodies.
Oh, that's great to hear. Studying the growth of the body is such a deeply important topic for everyone, regardless of their health - aside from it being fascinating, it is an area of learning about who we are that is overlooked. Anything you can do to remove toxicity from your bodies and environment, plus to ensure your nutritional requirements are met - is a good idea.
Thorough, organic detoxification and properly performed fasting are great ideas to help the body to clear out it's junk. The body's elimination pathways tend to rely on the lymphatic system, so supporting the lymph to move by ensuring we are sufficiently hydrated and by walking regularly are a great idea.
Sufficient sunlight exposure and not being stuck behind UV filtering glass all day (such as windows and eye glasses) is also important.
I don't actually do all of these things myself at present, but fully intend to in the near future. Our priorities often get out of alignment with real needs, sadly.
Some other books I recommend:
Health & Light by Dr. Ott (old but good)
Feelings Matter by Ceanne deRohan (all her books are uniquely empowering)
To health!
I am sorry your going through this right now my dad got skin cancer and he was able to get it removed I wish the best for you and your family. Hoping it is taken care of with minimal damage and a quick recovery!
!PIZZA
@sirsmokesalot96, sorry! You need more to stake more $PIZZA to use this command.
The minimum requirement is 20.0 PIZZA staked.
More $PIZZA is available from Hive-Engine or Tribaldex
May all the pain healed.
I wish you all the best in this difficult phase!
jeez, i wish you all the best
Family is truly everything in a man's life and when you get to see them suffer or in pain, it can be devastating to one's mental health.
Keep staying strong and write more about it if you need to, whatever keeps you sane.
Sorry to hear that. I hope it's not cancerous and your wife will get better. Stay strong Wes! Fingers crossed.
Sorry to read about this, my best wishes to you and your family - hopefully the tumour will turn out to be benign.
Thinking of you guys, that’s scary and hopefully it isn’t cancer and can be treated either way.
So sorry about this. Sending you love and light and I hope everything works out well in the end
It must be really hard for you to have to watch your wife suffer and the sense of the unknown must be unbearable for both of you. I think writing about things like this is a helpful way of working through your thoughts, hopes and fears.
This may mean nothing to you, but I want you to know that you and your wife are in my prayers.
I am so sorry to read about what you and your wife are going through. It's true that writing helps us to unburden ourselves and lighten the load. Best wishes to you and I hope everything gets sorted out and your wife can be treated and get the help she needs to recover and heal.
@derangedvisions I scrolled through the comments and saw it was benign! So grateful to you! I had a tumor on my salivary glands a few years ago and it is like your entire life stops until you find out if you have cancer or not.
So happy for you and the new life that you have been given. I wish you didn't have to know how awesome this moment is, but I am happy for you!