Growth through hardship; a summary of a transformative year!
2025 is coming to a close and I thought a @caffetto freewrite would be the best closure to end this year. I’m sitting here reflecting on how I came to Hive through @mada; a typical uptown Minneapolis day in 2016, now trying to process that 2026 will be a decade on this platform. I can’t believe that! What a journey. There’ll be a day when I just sit back, old as fuck, reading a journal of the most consequential years of my life and that’s no joke. A lot of Hive was about being incentivized to post but a byproduct of post rewards was documenting my career, my friendships and relationships, successes and defeats. Lately I’ve been thinking about breaking ground on a Henry Miller/Hunter S. Thompson-esque memoir of my life because much of it is straight out of a movie and I’ll be drawing on much of that Hive archive for that endeavor.
Apparently, I haven’t made a post since late July. A lot has happened. If you go back through my blog, I eluded to some of the worst years of my life. I mean, complete identity collapse in the truest sense of the word. I don’t recognize myself from 2022. If you saw me now, I’d look the same but internally, there was a complete death and rebirth cycle. It took me a ton of work, therapy and coming to Islam but I’m on my feet again and I’m feeling hopeful of the future for the first time in a long time. I’ve written at length about how personally the genocide in Gaza has affected me. I lost so many friends after October 7th — after losing so many friends during COVID, it’s cathartic to have found a new community and family. I’ve always had a belief in God but wouldn’t consider myself religious most of my life. I certainly didn’t believe in the power of prayer, but after such a crushing low point in my life, I was humbled. After losing so many people I cared about, I prayed for good friends. I have so much gratitude to have them in my life now.
One of my closest is my friend Christine. She’s a queer Palestinian Christian and we’ve worked on the most meaningful projects of my life together. She’s such a force of nature with her talent and ambition. In addition to being a musician, poet and actor, she just completed her residency and is a medical doctor. The chemistry we have creativity is rare. We did a project called Rise that we released one year from the beginning of the genocide in Gaza. Our second project was a second issue of a zine called Intifada. This was very healing for me. The content and production was a big step up from the first issue. I was really proud of the artwork. @girlofgaza even contributed a journal to this issue, God bless her, living on the ground throughout this entire genocide. One of the Minnesota nonprofits contributed to our printing efforts and we’ve been able to send over 7,000 issues around the world!
Christine and I recently finished a short film that was released on Black Friday inspired by a dream I had about a devil aggressively trying to sell someone the evils of society. It was meant to be a critique on capitalism and the greed and excess of the world, especially the west. This was new territory for me because although I’ve done a lot of videography and documentation of protests over the years, this was the closest I’ve come to actual film making. I was really happy with the gaffing for this. I took @guthrie to see Frankenstein in theaters during its limited release and I remember thinking, “I’m going to steal that lighting!”. I felt like I stayed true to my signature lighting from the dark pinup years of my career. Christine had never acted in this capacity and she killed it! Both Rise and Intifada took us over six months each and we managed to pull this together in six weeks.
I have so much more to say, I’m going to make this a two parter. @caffetto is about to close so I need to pack up my stuff. Look forward to my journey back in to 3D sculpting since ZBrush is now available on the iPad, new photography for a Palestine/El Salvadorian cafe that just opened in the Twin Cities, a car accident […we’re okay] and adventures in sourdough bread. I really love being back here and I wish it wasn’t so difficult to stick to a routine of posting on Hive. I’m going to make a commitment to a more regular blogging schedule in the New Year, especially considering this is my Tin anniversary on Hive. As always, thank you for reading and for the years of continued support and friendship.
Nice to see you again mate!
Just woke up and saw this so had to reblog before reading and getting some coffee first :D
Downvotes are killing Hive
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Just understand blocktrades steevc theycallmedan meno crimsonclad and others are in big trouble if nothing changes why do you think I don't really care what you say or do It means nothing buddy 😁
Hurtlocker account is only here to downvote people Hive does need another downvoting whale 🐳
@Themarkymark is the most hated account on Hive 😂
I hope you are all good and well today
Here's a message for the downvoters and the farmers you know who you are
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Just understand the more you try and defend something that is wrong no one will ever trust you
I can stand by what I've shared and done can you 🤔
I started getting attacked with downvotes along time it's all on chain and everything is documented
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The man who hides behind accounts and pretends to do good but I see everything buddy
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To the downvoting racist old and young farmers You are a scammer a thief a criminal who is working for other criminals
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Hello everyone I hope you are all good and well today in this post is some of the evidence to prove my case
If you didn't know I've been getting downvoted for a long time on Hive
They have been trying to bully me with downvotes and words but it doesn't affect me I've been online for over 25 years
So I've dealt with people like this before it's nothing new
But what they are doing is bad Very badi joined steemit like everyone else thinking it offers freedom but I must say steemit offered much more freedom than Hive does
Everyone already knows I only post my own original content I have no need to steal anything from anyone
I've been labelled a lot of things on Hive 😂 by the biggest farmers scammers and downvoters
Actions speak louder than any words do especially when them words are coming from a compolsive liars
I will keep updating this post when I get time
https://hive.blog/hive/@ureka.stats/the-untrending-report-hive-downvote-analysis-16-09-2025-20250916181314
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No downvotes for this racist person 🧐
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It's unbelievable that they downvoted this Goodbye Auntie R.I.P 🙏🏾
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RE: Understanding Pointers in C Programming
Please Peakd, allow me to completely block spammers (Would you ever vote for this?) thanks for exposing yourself more @makerhacks
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When the downvotes stop 🛑 and my rep is back I stop sharing the truth 🙏🏾
You can call the truth spam as much as you like
If want to speak to me in private send me a message on Instagram @kgakakillerg
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I hope you all have a lovely week ahead 🙏🏾
Thanks, brother. I’ve been getting back on my feet but I can always measure where I’m at in my ow peace and mental health when I’m blogging regularly, so it’s a good sign to be back. Hope you’re doing well and closing out the year on an upswing!
I'm glad to hear you are doing well still! It's also nice to hear that your friend is doing well. I know that religion in general doesn't do a very good job of making people who are born a different way very welcome. I'm glad she maintains her faith amidst that.
Truth, @bozz. How are you doing? I think we’re both getting decimated by this Bomb Cyclone. Are you snowed in?
I should have been snowed in, but we had to take our great niece down to Toledo to get back with her grandparents, so I just drove through the middle of the bomb cyclone. Probably some of the least fun I have ever had driving!
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Completely unrelated to your post: do you ever do anything with your MTG community?
What you do for a few cent is so bad no wonder you look like that 👺👹👹👹👺
Hello everyone good morning I hope you all have a lovely day ahead ✌🏾 👊🏾 🙏🏾
I'm only really sharing this because of this racist weirdo on Hive who really thinks downvotes and word's do anything all I can do is laugh 😂 and share the truth and we all know when your lying the truth hurts
Some try to say that downvotes are good for Hive but what good had come out of downvoting good honest people away 🤔
You some stupid whales on Hive trying to get others to promote Hive like it's something good and offers freedom when we all know it doesn't offer no freedom unless you are part of the gang ⭕⭕⭕⭕⭕⭕⭕⭕⭕⭕
Here's some screenshots you might find very Interesting I only work with facts not made up stuff 😂
Anyone can talk shit 💩 it means nothing when there's evidence that shows the truth 😁
@crimsonclad please do your job 🙏🏾
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It's unbelievable that they downvoted this Goodbye Auntie R.I.P 🙏🏾
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📊 The Untrending Report - Hive Downvote Analysis - 2025-09-07
RE: Understanding Pointers in C Programming
Please Peakd, allow me to completely block spammers (Would you ever vote for this?) thanks for exposing yourself more @makerhacks
Please go through it all instead of calling it spam 😂😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
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To all the downvoters on Hive When the downvotes stop 🛑 and my rep is back I stop sharing the truth 🙏🏾
You can call the truth spam as much as you like it changes nothing 😂
If want to speak to me in private send me a message on Instagram @kgakakillerg and we can speak on blurt @kgakakillerg 😁
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I hope you all have a fantastic day today and remember be truthful 🙏🏾
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Please read and share thank you 🙏🏾