Slowly changing my schedule

Hi, guys!

Right now I'm still in a depressive episode, I can't do anything about it. But I need to somehow get out of it, so I'm trying to pull myself together and start doing at least something, in very short fifteen-minute intervals. I hope I'll have enough strength to go to training tonight, but I haven't decided yet, it's just an idea in my head. I hope, but I'm not completely sure yet.

I want to spend fifteen minutes writing and fifteen minutes drawing. That's the minimum I've planned for today. Definitely cook a healthy meal. And definitely exercise, if I don't go to training, then a home workout. At least something.

My brain is really scared right now. But I hope that when I show it that I really intend to spend only fifteen minutes on each task, it will relax a little and let me do it.

I have an appointment with a psychiatrist today, and I hope he will tell me something useful. He is usually very careful in choosing medications, but I need to push him to take more decisive action, because I can no longer be in the state I am in now, I absolutely need to get out of it. I need to explain this to the doctor. I hope he will be able to understand me.

Soon I should receive an answer from the publisher, whether my manuscript was accepted for collaboration, but I try not to think about it and not to stress about it, because this is another reason to be nervous. And I definitely do not need to be nervous. So I try not to think about it, I’d rather find out the answer right away when it comes, and not be nervous in advance.

That’s how I am now. I hope everything will be fine and everything will work out.

Have a great day everyone!