cranium of pain (drawing and poem )

We have walked for a long time, we have laughed, we have cried, but we have also argued, I wonder if the arguments have been so deep as to damage something inside us.
I woke up, sweating and with a tear on my face, maybe I had that dream again, where you are by my side and out of nowhere you leave, without saying goodbye, and without saying a single word, it's so dark that feeling.
I have prevailed in your memory, maybe you think of me while I'm gone, maybe you imagine something together, or maybe you remember moments shared between you and me?
I have woken up sometimes full of energy, positivism and grateful for waking up, because I know you exist in this world, and just to coincide, because you could have been born out of my time, or be a millionaire and live in another class in which we could never coincide, what do I know, there are so many ways in which you and I could have never met, but you are here and I see you.
Last night I dreamed of you, and when I woke up, I was alone as always, I wonder what you are doing, if you are thinking of me, I know you are, but what am I doing without you at this moment, the moment I miss you the most, the moment you are not here, I will see you later, but my heart beats knowing that you exist, I hope this madman can continue to make you happy, and no more damage than I have already caused, because your tears should not run because of me, I should be your cure, your refuge, but after that wound, I feel broken, I destroyed myself, with that pain that I have caused you, and I regret it.