Lover whom you can't unlove

Hello my hive family, recently i have been posting my free verse poetry most of you are liking and complimenting me,for this i am thankful. I will keep sharing the poetry that i wrote for a lover whom i can not have but still at the times apart from the reality in ny zone he is with me and i am with him. So here it comes another subtle free verse poem...
The poem is about loving someone eith all your heart and soul whom you can't have, there are feelings of missing, happiness, fears and accepting that they both love each other but for the sake of their love they are trying their best to stay together even for a while.

I won't try to avoid missing you... I will miss u with all my heart and i will remember u no matter how much busy i am gonna be in these coming months. Your smile, your baatyn will be my fuel
I have no regrets. Even though i was against all of this all my life.
But every thing that makes us happy means a lot to me
I just want to give you love that no body in this life can give u. I just want to love u deeply immensely even if it is for brief time.
I comsume you like a liquor but your love burns me like a kerosene.
Even though you always try your best to eliminate all the insecurities that our relationship can have but there is constant fear remains in my mind, what, what if you become a totally new person to me, a person whom i don't want to see.