I Am #AliveAndThriving Today! || #IAmAliveChallenge || Daily Off-Grid Jungle Journal Entry: Day #1172 - A Beautiful and Challenging Sunday, and a Late Weekly-Hive-Goals-and-Progress Update This Week - Big Island, Hawai'i - Sunday, October 12, 2025

I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 7 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙

Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

I just realized, much to my chagrin, that I was supposed to write and publish my Sunday Weekly Hive Goals and Progress Update this morning before writing this post. Doh. Well, since it's already too late in the morning to write it today, I'll do my best to get it done either tonight or tomorrow morning, depending on how much I need to get done on Hive this evening. Forgetting posts is not something that I usually do, but I feel pretty frazzled with processing mental-emotional triggers and reactions inside myself from my time out on the coast yesterday. It truly was a beautiful day, with some fun moments, but honestly I ran into the wall of the same seemingly-inescapable and very limiting perspectives about myself and my life.

Yesterday almost everyone else went to Kalani for ecstatic dance, but Østeen, Chelsea, and I decided to get dropped off at Kehena (our local and beloved black-sand, clothing-optional beach) instead. I didn't feel like paying $20 just to dance to music that I may or may not like. Going to the beach early was a good decision, as it was absolutely gorgeous, sunny, warm, and with a lovely breeze. Even the ocean was the perfect temperature (though the waves were a little rough). The one notable bit of fun that I had was playing with Chelsea in the sand and surf for a good while. I also took more photos on the beach than usual (it's hard to avoid including people in them when the beach is crowded, as it usually is on Sunday after dance gets out), which was excellent.

The mental triggers that I experience that often shut me down in social environments are still present, even with my recent opening, reintegration, and expansion, and they stand in stark contrast to them. I spent most of the rest of the day at the beach, and later at the Lawn, staring out at the ocean, and people watching, while chain-smoking splifs (tobacco and ganja mixed), drinking my superfood fire coffee, and when I had reception on my phone, doing some asset management on Hive. With being so shut down, I didn't feel inspired or motivated to dance at all (and I love dancing), so I didn't.

I'm quite an amazing fellow, if I do say so myself, but certain important parts of me are still basically broken. The mental triggers, the emotional-somatic reaction, and the subsequent shutdown in my body and system, are very strong indeed, and I don't yet know how to resolve and heal them. It's quite a bugger.

So I'm caught on the one side by new opening, integration, and expansion, and on the other by the old triggers-reactions-shutdown, and I seem to keep bouncing between them. Since going off-property on Sundays seems to trigger shutdown pretty consistently lately, I probably won't be going out again for a while. I still don't know how what I most want (and I still need some clarity on exactly what it is that I want in certain areas), and that for which I most long and yearn, is even possible in my life now. I'm quite the paradoxical contradiction.

Yesterday, Sunday, after returning to GaiaYoga after our day out by about 7:30PM, I headed to the Landing first to collect my jar of coconut kefir, and then to the Flow House to begin my evening Hive tasks, and to catch up on my notifications. I got everything done by about 9:30PM, and after some asset management, I went to bed very early, by 10PM. I woke up around 6AM, having slept well, doing more asset management, going to make my superfood fire coffee in the Landing, then returning to the Flow House to write this post (because I forgot to write and publish my Weekly-Hive-Goals-and-Progress Update). It's now just before 11:30AM, so it's quite a good time to wrap this up, so that I may get to my other few important Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House later in the afternoon, to focus first on photography for my posts, then community/land work. I deeply appreciate y'all so very much! Until the my very-late Sunday-Weekly-Hive-Goals-and-Progress Update later this evening or tomorrow morning, and the next version of these posts tomorrow afternoon! Always forward, onward, upward, and whaleward, ho, together we go! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙

2025 Life Goals

1.) Do regular integral practices again, alone or with others.

2.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again.

3.) Make my plant nursery, and the gardens, beautiful again.

4.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon.

All photos were taken with my Motorola G Play 2024 Android Phone.

Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙

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