I''ve been on a roll lately - And no I can't explain it all. It just comes through when I work
I wish I didn't worry about posting. I have a lot of stuff. I don't see any point in just putting it in box in the closet. So I'm going to put it out there. I can't understand why I'm worried about down votes... It's totally irrelevant. I mean I have no idea if I will ever see any withdrawal to cash anymore. I don't even know if it's possible in this country. I actually feel sick right now. Having no one to trust to speak to is really hard. I romanticize the past when I had no cell phone and no computer and no one knew where we were anytime. I didn't realize then how great it was to not be in fear 24 hours a day. Cognitive dissonance and conflictual realities. I Know I should be able to let it go and it just returns and returns over and over
I'm glad you are on a roll with the art.
No one makes art that everyone will love. It's always not someone's cup-o-tea. Like you say though, that part doesn't really matter. Sure it's nice if people like it, but it's not exactly what it is all about at the core of things. The best part of art to me is what it does for me on the inside. If some others like it, that is very happy "icing on the cake" as they say.
I'm not sure why you worry about down votes, especially on art. The only downvotes I've ever seen on things like that is where "someone" is downvoting "someone else" that liked the art or post and it is not personally against the poster. Unfortunate as that is, sometimes you just get to be collateral damage LOL.....such is life.
I worry about stupid things all the time.
I worry about my mom 24/7 I can't even talk to her without being completely misunderstood and everything going sideways. I worry about everything in this apartment. Trying to keep things clean and working. I worry about the caring for the great kitty my neighbor who got evicted from our building. He had to leave the cat behind.I worry about feeding him and giving him attention. I worry that my entire life has been some sort of autism spectrum mental illness and now it's all over... failure in every area. I worry I'm never going to see anywhere in world. Never go to Europe never go anywhere but this stupid town. I worry that I will get sick and no one will be there to help me. No one. I worry about My teeth and no insurance and my eyes. i need glasses and con't afford anything. nothing. The more money I make the more everything costs. I'm an idiot. I worry that I can only keep quiet for so long then I will write something like this. Every holiday is pure torture here for me. I wait for Monday and then it will just start again.
AND There is some extremely serious things that are unsafe to talk about here or anywhere. I can't believe at 67 yrs old this is how things are.
Your first sentence made me laugh.... but the rest of it didn't.
It sounds like some anxiety and with that many things going on, it's no wonder.
California gives away so much healthcare, it's a wonder you aren't able to qualify for some of it. It sure would be nice if you could. At our age (I'm 68...and a half!)...being concerned about health things is common, even for those of us with health insurance. I'm still working full time and have it through my company, but it's nowhere near free. Being concerned about getting sick and having no one to take care of you is not uncommon either. so I have to hope I don't only half die and go into a nursing home!
I know, just knowing others have some of the same concerns, really doesn't help at all on ones personal journey as it doesn't change a thing, but just know, that boat is a crowded one.
I have said that before, I never pictured my life like it turned out, but then I wondered if maybe it was better for my younger life that I didn't know... LOL!!!
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Hi to alleviate some pressure, could you look into exploring cat sanctuaries for adoption and rehoming? My neighbour's cat, Molly, had a second home nearby, as cats often do. When Molly's owner moved, the neighbour decided to adopt her. Unfortunately, he later became ill and could no longer care for her. Another neighbour and I helped place her in a cat sanctuary, where she was successfully rehomed. While it was stressful, as I had a connection with Molly, I couldn't take her in. At least it had a happy ending.
The situation you have with your mum - is there anyone you can contact for help? We have Social Services over here to help with Social Care so I was wondering if you have something similar?
Regarding cryptocurrency withdrawals. I know I've previously mentioned Nexo. I deleted my comment as Nexo is still not operational in the United States. I contacted them this morning, and while they confirmed they are re-entering the US market, they couldn't provide a specific timeframe. Something to keep an eye on. Have you tried Binance US? As you know, I previously used Ionomy, and at 66 years old, I find learning new platforms difficult. Until I get my head around things, to cut the risk, I transfer the minimum amount so if it goes tits up it's not the end of the world.
Don't worry about asking for help with organisations, support groups or anyone you know. Usually, there's someone who knows something or can point you in the right direction.