A broken record. Or just worn and scratched and skipping and starting all over again and again

I avoid people and also talk to people when I'm out and about. I'm usually unable to cut it short. I pick up on their thoughts, feelings , emotions. Not literally generally. I know when they want to get away from me. At 68 years old with most friends dead or long gone it's really scary in a lot of ways. Things have progressed so far down in the last 10 or 12 years. The intense crowds traffic noise pressure. What is extreme boredom and intense pressure with nothing to look forward to or anywhere new to go? I still have a car but can't leave the apt after about 4:30 PM. There is no where to park if I do. It's a circle of frustration and hopelessness. This is when many people will turn towards a higher power/spiritual answer or solution or just comfort. It's all I have now. There's no one else to talk to.