The Yearly Stimulation
Over the past few years I set out on a few highly ambitious journeys; starting from 2018, which was a pivotal stage in my life, one where I decided to stay back in my country and carry on here instead of going abroad.
There was no "new year's resolution" back then, what we did have was hope and hunger; continuous effort, time, and money was invested towards a cause. Along with a roughly sketched blueprint and a dream, a young bunch of boys stepped out to reach a certain goal by the end of the year. The year commenced with one plan; sadly, soon enough that plan got disrupted at full tilt, 3 to 4 months later.
Yet, halfway through the year another big opportunity was in our hands, one that we almost secured; we were 90% sure that we would secure the deal, but even that "little" opportunity went downhill, thanks to some miscalculations from the "chiefs".
Soon after I decided to go solo for quite a while, started to work on myself again. And as we closed in towards 2019, my father approached me and told me to help him with the family business, and I agreed. By the end of 2019, after going through a lot of ups and downs, I had finally reached a stable position.
Sadly, Covid was waiting right around the corner; just when I was about to receive my big break, "life happened". After that it has been a steady ride downwards, on the decline for almost 4 years now. I realized then, just when we take a step forward, a random streak of inconveniences show up and force us to take three steps backwards.
It has been a repetitive game of going back and forth so far.
Yet, a newer year always ignites and shines a hopeful and bright spark within us all, giving us hope, to start over with a clean slate, focused towards a better and "steadier" future.
2022 looked and felt promising at the beginning, but as we closed in towards the end, we figured out it was the same game of going back and forth.
So, at this point I just know that it's my fate that draws the line; fate, destiny, whatever it may be, I say the limit has been set, and I'll have to compromise and be in "its" surrender a bit longer, I guess.
Hence, I am now somewhat afraid of setting the bar too high.
Well, I've probably never set the bar too high, not even as a kid. I believe I have always been fairly realistic and minimal; even though the thought of having a big house and garage full of cars may seem "dreamy", I'd rather leave such thriftless dreams in wonderland.
I can't fight what's destined, or maybe I just don't want to fight?
"Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange" - Leonardo DiCaprio
Being real is important, probably more important than having illimitable dreams.
Setting unrealistic goals is also a thing, one that does not have a polite ending.
Sometimes we get so hyped up, we end up forgetting we are only human, and we all do not function the same way; we are flawed under all this tailor-made skin and flesh, and we have our limits.
Taking this whole thing we call life and its challenges like it's a race, creating unnecessary competition out of every thing and every scenario just leads you to a station where you end up cutting a oneway ticket towards your own doomsday.
That is why I've learned to go with the flow; a strict plan and a solid goal at the beginning of the year isn't a thing anymore.
Hence, the tension and anxiety of failing, not being able to achieve a certain result or goal is not my headache anymore. The things I can't control don't bother me; the day I don't give it my all, not try my best, that's when I'm bothered. All I know is that I'm trying, and I surely am making progress according to my own pace. I'm improving myself and my ways of living, little by little, gradually growing and figuring out who I actually am as a person, and what my purpose is here on this earth.
There will always be room for progress and growth. But worrying about a certain outcome or result at some point in the future? That's something I'll let "fate" and nature decide for now. All I can offer now is my limited effort.
For now, 2023 is just another year, January is just another month, and here I am on the 5th of January, penning down typing down my thoughts, living in the moment and ready to take on the challenges that lie ahead.
Cheers ✨☮️
I agree, it's great to set goals, have aspirations, and work toward them, but it's important to take things in stride:)
Thanks for your #KISS
I enjoyed it 😉
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Everyone has their own different methods for achieving a goal I guess. For me and my life it's a progressive thing, I've noticed that it's a very slow and steady process. So, now instead of fighting what nature has planned, I just go with the flow and make changes when needed. Adapting to a scenario has worked best so far.
Fighting what's about to come, or the things I can't control, only led me towards more failures.
Very beautiful your reflections!!! I sincerely hope you achieve everything you want!!! I agree with you, I don't feel anxious about the future, I live little by little and I enjoy the processes and the good people!!! A hug!!!!
Thank you for your kind words, it really means a lot. 🖤
That is the proper way I'd say. At this point problems and difficulties have just become a streak of pesky potholes which are unavoidable; so maneuvering through them as you're on the path seems like a better approach to me.