My Space
I will tread through the biggest of crowds, across the dusty, mud-filled, most populated, and polluted parts of town. You won't even have to tell me twice; if the job requires it, I will comply.
However, when I need my space, when I decide to distance myself from all the noise, just to recharge, then you will never be able to intrude or saunter anywhere near my vicinity. That's just how I am.
As I grew older, I began to appreciate a bit of calm and quiet; loneliness no longer played the role of an antagonist in my life. Instead, I introduced a bit of necessary solitude into my life. I understood that fewer people meant less drama, and that led to very little noise; which is quite rare in this city.
A part of me also wants to step away from all of the media, ads, material, and influence. The last thing I want, is to be influenced by those who require "proper influencing" and counseling.
You know what I mean? Hopefully, you folks understand what I'm trying to say.
In the past few years, I found myself mostly sitting at home with every door and window closed; delving into an immersive game, reading a buoyant book, or enjoying a dolorous song, I discovered a different form of calm in many forms and contrasting guises.
Some don't understand self-isolation, and why sometimes I'd rather be alone, and that's fine.
It's not like I detest my own kind, humans, and the great outdoors, nature. It's just that I feel like I've wasted a lot of time focusing on the things that other people think are fun, beneficial and productive, but to me most of it was never truly amusing or enjoyable.
I just want to get rid of every form of external influence, and just be myself. At least try my best to discover myself properly, find out who I really am, what I really want, and what my purpose here in the land of living is.
And to do that, I need a whole lot of peace and quiet now and then. I need a hard reset.
Yet, I'm never entirely out of contact though.
Maybe I'm out in the streets trying to get back home under heavy rainfall, again, without an umbrella; yet, that doesn't stop me. Whether it's a swamp, forest, waterfall, or the beachside, every now and then I'll take my vital dose of nature too.
After all, we are humans, a bunch of inherently social creatures, beings in need of touch, voice, and real-life interaction. I can't change that, nor do I want to, but for me to stay focused on my path, I must lock myself up, and then sometimes skedaddle into the unknown as well...
Because...
"Solitude is the soul's holiday" - Katrina Kenison
I would not say this happens to everyone but I noticed that people become more in love with silence when they grow older
We are adults. We should not need noise anymore. All we need is calmness and what will make us happy
Not everyone, not everyone...
We need a bit of both; one to keep our bodies functioning properly, and one for the soul and inner peace.
About 80% of this sums me up.
I will gladly walk in the rain without an umbrella not minding the stares just because it's what I want to do.
Or just some me time when I just want to get away from the whole world. Had neighbors asking if I travelled when they didn't see me for a few days even though I was home all along.
This happened to be during and right after COVID. 😂
Even though COVID and its lockdowns were long gone, I still spent most of my time at home. Because I really didn't need to go out to get all my work done.
Whatever it is you feel like is something you should do if it is beneficial to your overall well being because there are some things we always want to do that are not so good for us but then we just do them anyways to satisfy our thirst for such things.
Staying away every now and then to discover oneself is key and also going out once in a while to experience people and nature is also vital. It's a good thing you are trying to get the right dose of everything. Me time is very important and it shouldn't be overlooked.
External influence plays a big part here, and that's the last thing I need right now.
Balance is key! And I'm just tired of being a part of this damn loop; whether it be my personal life or my work life. Yet, I must stay in the loop, or else I won't be able to put food on the table.
It's frustrating for me too, everything and everyone always want to seem to have influence on us.
That's one of the challenges of being and employee but we just have to keep trying to let these things don't get to us too much.
That is why learning to keep our ears shut is important, and I'm still trying to master this technique lol.
Hahaha, me too but it's so damn hard, sometimes I just want to pour out all that I have to say out, hehe.
Patience, patience, young grasshopper. 🙏
I hope I can also walk in the rain without an umbrella, but I always get sick just from the drizzles. We're mostly the same in a way. If interactions from the outside world is unnecessary, I'd rather stay in my room and do whatever I like alone.
Unfortunate! But don't let that stop you though, sometimes you just gotta go YOLO haha.
Exactly! I've done my fair bit of socializing and partying already. And now I'd rather be alone, that's how I like it, every now and then at least.
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You even go as far as turning off your cell phone for days Riz 😂 so, I cannot doubt this paragraph.
That's rare though, a bit too extreme, you know.
So, I can't do it as often. 😬
I agree. Have a good one Riz ✨
Same to you, Teky.
Thanks for dropping by. 🍻