Tuesday - Releasing The Pain And Reflection

5 days ago

Waking up at 3:33am and I felt something that pulling me under my blanket. I was not scared but I wanted someone to see like my parent and grandparents who were all in heaven. I wanted to see their appearance in front of me but nothing I see and realized it was just only a dream. Then I stood up, went to the bathroom, taking a bath before feeding the birds. The sun was still hiding Ang no visibility of the moon because the night was cloudy. Suddenly , I got a poem unexpectedly. It was spoken from my heart which is hurting all the time.

The Dawn of My Life

The whole house is quiet
The whole environment, no noise
There are no cars on the road
The birds are still fast asleep
The cat did not show

Lord, You are the one who knows what
What is in the heart and mind
There is no hypocrisy
Even if it is heavy, what I carry
I believe I can handle it
Because if I could handle it then
I need to handle it even more now

Thank you very much for the sleep
When I wake up, You are the content of it
Forgive me for my shortcomings
If I am not happy, in this world
I will hope, in heaven I will achieve it
As you are waiting for me

I prayed, I sang a song praising His name.

In the morning, I felt lighter feelings as I did my daily household task. Talking with friends and family around made senses support what I am feeling right now.

I picked some flowers in my garden and wrote the name of my beloved one.