Monday - Looking Back , Today and Tomorrow!

3 months ago (Edited)

After the lunar New years Day I read some positive notes for a certain Libra which is me. I believe the power of God in the first place - by faith and love! That is why I am in love because God is love. I remember the day when I was in high school I rented a horoscope magazine just to read about my life pertaining on what was happening every day. My paternal grandmother thought me about it and she had an old almanac book hidden in the old wooden box. She didn't want us to read it but as if she already knew what future brings us. Until the day I was addicted about horoscope and instead of buying food my 0.50ph, I rented just to read about my life of that day.

At this time, I found it for free in the internet especially in the YouTube. Yes, I am ready it as guide and warning. Sorry for those who don't believe this but with honesty, I accept that I am reading it for warning to me. As I've said, I trust God the owner of my day and life until the end, life after death.

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At 2am today, my friend lighted candle. It was secretly done because it is not good that my boss will see it. She is a Christian from Africa and she had her own belief about life. But she lighted the candle for her and one for me without explanation.

Looking at the candle in our dark room, I remember my old times when my grandmother rendered a prayer. So it pushed me to utter wishes and I silently prayed and say some intention. God knew from the deepest chamber of my heart.*❤❤❤🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🐦🐦🐦!

What a feeling of emptiness, forced me to check my photo album and watched our old photographs.

This is me when I was three months here in Saudi and the new one is three days ago the one wearing in blue. Same thing holding the THE DATE tree(Saudi Arabia national tree).

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I saw the picture of me and my late husband holding our only son.

Then the picture of me and my son during my first vacation.

Oh my God, I noticed the picture of us with my siblings and Uncle, the only brod of my father who is alive.

Watching my latest horoscope in Youtube remind me about what my grandmother told me about my future. It was long time ago during my elementary grade. Then lately, I got a friend in #hive who is a tarot readers @tarotbyfergus, who have the future insight about politics and well being about big names around and intuition. It is a coincidence that I noticed from him.

Family matters

Being the eldest among siblings, since my parents already joined our creator in heaven, the responsibility is now iny shoulder and of course my siblings. I am now solving issue and it deepened my thought, my boiling emotions for my family, my son and for myself.

May the candle lighted by my friend help ease the heavy burden and I know God will make it lighter and easy if we cast everything to him above.

This is just a story that I entrusted here in @asean.hive and #hiveph. Hopping for your understanding when sometimes, manytime I have drama of my life. This is a real life story and hopeful for your consideration and understanding.

More page to tell next Monday!