Admiring the golden light, and struggling in the negative temperatures

The snow continues to disappear around the city as the sun comes out. Though temperatures remain incredibly low. Around -10 in the daytime, to which it feels quite brutal trying to go anywhere and do anything. I have a few clothes to prepare for such temperatures but it's still very easy to get cold if you're out there as long as I tend to be. Constantly roaming the streets, never really going inside any places. Just constant exposure to the unforgiving. But I don't really know what else to do, I'm bored at home, I'm always bored at home. I'm always wanting to be out there and finding something new or photographing something. The feeling of wasted life if I remain within the same four walls doing nothing but finding something to do as justification for it. I think the only times I do feel content with being home is after shooting something, where I have something to go through and see what I like and don't that I've captured.

Yesterday was a long walk from home into the city centre. I initially had no intentions of going so far, thinking I'd just go to a new park I've found nearby that I've taken some appreciation for. Where it's isolated, Soviet and a bit old, but full of trees and tranquility. There aren't many like that here, sure there are a few courtyards and their gardens, of which is this one of them, but few that reach such isolation and peace to the point of feeling like you are actually in the natural world again, where the roaring of roads are lesser heard, and the concrete towers of the Soviet Union's former industrial might don't obscure the skies around. Usually parks here tend to lack trees, tend to be very busy, or just too close to those aforementioned roads. The ice continues to be a problem, where there aren't many safe places to walk around. Even in the city centre. I walked around there for a little bit and found it to be a more stressful venture than anything else. Also noticing how many people intentionally ran off into shops, cafes and restaurants. Even beneath the street in underground shopping centres for warmth.

The light has been absolutely beautiful though, there's a golden look to everything around throughout much of the day, which is nice given the photography and film potential before sunset. Where during winter it often feels like there's not enough daylight hours in the day to capture everything or do everything you want before the darkness takes over. I do think this is one of my more productive winters, given how much I've managed to shoot and pursue. I think it gave me a good start going into the new year, and I'm not usually one to make those new year's resolutions and such. But I do like this pacing and aim to maintain the momentum. Constantly motivated, constantly wanting to create and find any means to do so. Really pushing myself out there and making my name more known.

While I do love the wintery feeling lately, I'm really looking forward to the warmth returning a little. To at least make it easier and more comfortable to roam around. The snow is nice, the cold temperature not so much. Though I am definitely not asking for that strong summer heat to return so quickly...