Realization about life .... becoming self centered person!

Hello lifestyle community. I hope you're doing great. I am fine but more worried about some things. In a positive way. I past few year I changed my thoughts about life . It's a realization for me, about life ....my life . Becoming self centered person, but not the selfish one. Creating my own new version for the betterment! Gathering knowledge from the life , society & people around me .

Many students from outside Dhaka used to come to study in our college. They lived in the college hostel. They would eat out sometimes or eat hostel food to get them through the day. They were desperate for home food. I couldn't keep up with the calculations because I would get bored eating home-cooked meals. Does anyone feel upset when they think of simple food at home?! This question was on my mind.

If you can stay outside the house, you can get so much freedom, how many fantasy works!

All fantasy work has stopped since January 22, 2020. I felt all the pain of being away from my parents for the first time in my life that day. The previous night I fell asleep without eating due to headache, I woke up late in the morning and saw the hostel dining closed and realized that no one would wait for me with food here.
After returning from class in the afternoon, I saw the cold curry and wanted to say "Why is this curry cold?! I won't eat it".

I didn't say, actually there was no way, I was forced to eat cold rice and cold curry.
I went to the room and saw a messy room. There was no mother here to arrange everything.
That day, I realized how fun it is to cook thin khichuri!

I was slowly feeling how hard it was to be without family in a new city. But I didn't tell anyone about this bad feeling, not even my father....

I give chocolates to my younger ones on their birthdays, books if they are close. After almost four years, I realized that this custom should not have been maintained in the campus. When it comes to achieving higher education, everyone's standards have decreased. It is human custom to help someone in danger, it is human custom to smile and talk to someone....Campus is not for people....

I know I'm growing up. Became more mature. But day by day I am becoming more introvert. I realize last two days I didn't said anything to anyone , even a single word by my mouth! Except my parents. In this big world no one is your, without your parents.