Life goes on its own rules. No matter how many plans we make, it takes luck along with desire and effort to be fulfilled.

This time I thought I would give a good exam, this is my semester final from 4th. I was also studying. Next door everyone is getting dengue, so every night I used to sleep in the room with aerosol coils.

There is a proverb where is fear of tigers there is the evening.
I have no fever but my hands and feet ache with vomiting.

I don't know if it is dengue, but the body is very weak. I have so much reading, assignments, I can't get cool. I am a girl who is a struggler with her study to be something in life . To gain a career . You can called a career oriented girl . I love to write so I wanted to become a teacher cause this profession is the best option for writers! Not gonna lie I like to study novels , typical Bengali novels . So I need a good job or a career so I can by more & more books . I will own my own personal library. It's my dream & ultimate goal.

Day by day I realize nothing is possible if the superior does not want, he does not fail anyone's efforts, I am getting a little peace. There is still no electricity as before. Today the beautiful moon has risen in the sky and the moonlight is coming to my room.
Lying in bed watching the moonlight. I know that it will not able to read with a lot of mental pressure and body pain.
It feels good to lie down, today there is no wind even in the river. So I feel hot, if my body is good, I would go to the roof to see the moon, today I have no energy. I Have vomited eighteen times since morning. This situation has been going on for the past few days. Maybe I have thought too much about the exam, so the body has given up and it may be dengue. I don't know, but if I plan, it will not be fulfilled.

I feel very weak, I get comfort if I close my eyes, so I spend the day lying down. I feel that health is a great blessing given by the Lord, which cannot be understood if one is not sick. Everyone should take care of their body or later the body gives up, all the plans and hardships fail, I realized by myself.

I am Leaving for today, hope everyone prays for my recovery, see you soon.