My first week in October // determination is the key.

If y’all are thinking I had an exciting and nice week, I didn’t. I had more like an unproductive week which was so unusual of me. I am the type that normally try to have a productive day but this week I’ve been so lazy.

I had a lot on my table but I did none or maybe I did a few, I spent most of my time doing things of pleasure like watching a movie, football and scrolling through my phone. I was supposed to read for my upcoming examination, do the laundry, buy some stuffs from the mall, workout, crotchet and even write.

I am a morning person, and if I don’t have a very productive morning, the rest of the day are usually fruitless. I normally wake up 5:30 am, I do my personal stuffs and ‘wake up to the family’ by 7:00am. But for that week, it was different.

So when do I normally wake?

I do wake up 5:30am probably because my brain is used to it, I use the toilet and wash my face. But when I get back to my bedroom, my head just scream “sleep,sleep, sleep!!!”, I had more reasons to go back to sleep because mehn.. I have been having slight headache and body pains. Most times I ended up waking up again around 7am.

On Monday. October 3rd. There was a public holiday because October 1st was the Independence Day of my country, Nigeria. So, the holiday was shifted to Monday.

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Okay, when did I start this attitude?

I think this attitude started from Saturday, I stayed home and I don’t think I did anything meaningful. I had to watch Arsenal match on Saturday at home which made me late to where I was going to. We scored 3 goals while Tottenham scored 1. Don’t blame me, the match was giving me a lot of vibes…

So, yeah. On Monday was a public holiday I had the opportunity to stay at my mom’s shop because she went to the market. A friend of mine from secondary school decided to visit me. I think this was one of my favorite moment of the week. We talked and talked for a while before she decided we take pictures.. and we just did our best.

me and my friend

The following day which was Tuesday.. after waking up again around 7am, I didn’t even have the strength to do a lot, I mean my room was so scattered and I was so lazy. I had to just sit back and chat, watch video online, watch the tv and when there’s no light. I watch the movies I have on my phone. I think this was how most of my days went.

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I mean I was in my comfort zone, and yeah. I was enjoying it. The only time I felt down was around night time where I had to just looked back at my day and be like ‘you had about 15 hours to do something great but right now you have nothing to write home about‘. I’ll think about this in the night and sometimes I do something meaningful at that moment. But next morning, I repeat…

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Friday was different, I went to the market to get clothes materials for some of us my church members and some of my customers. I think my whole day was just going to the market and packaging the goods afterward. And in the evening/night I just had to rest. I should have shown the materials but I didn’t snapped it before giving them. I never knew I will be writing this post.

On Saturday, I had gotten a little bit of grit. I did a little bit of studying and cleaning because yeah, my room has gotten more dirtier. I don’t think I mentioned that I was writing on a topic to post for like a week and honestly, I still haven’t completed it. So, I did a little bit of writing on that topic on Saturday.

Plus… on Sunday, I watched arsenal match. I was so happy we won again. We played against Liverpool and it was 3-2,I am so happy we are leading. I hope I didn’t forget to mention that I am an arsenal fan.

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So, it is how my week went. I have been super tired though I was not feeling too well physically. I was feeling symptoms like headaches, body pain, fatigue and sometimes nausea . I just felt like I might fall sick but thankfully i didn’t.

What actually motivated me to become active was that, well, I have been in that position before. I got so addicted to phone, movie and I basically was so unproductive. I tried and tried and I actually got over it. I think what really pushed me is that I didn’t want to go back to that unproductive life.

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Knowing fully well that I would be busy this week. I wrote this writing from 9am to 12:30am in the note on my phone on October 10, Monday morning. Hoping to paste it on hive later. Even with the fact that I was doing one or two things like cooking. I was determined to do it, so yeah, I did. I mean I have been writing on a topic for like a week and I am still not done with it.

Ps: Determination is a very vital key to change yourself. You can only change yourself if you are determined. It goes a very long way.

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