First fail

Hi, guys!

Yesterday I finally got a response from the publishing house, which I had been waiting for a whole month. I had so much hope and faith that everything would be fine, but life had other plans for me. I was rejected. And now it looks like I'll have to wait until autumn and participate in the general pitching. I can't put into words how upset I was. In my heart, I believed until the very end that I would succeed, I was sure of it. But nothing worked out. And now it seems to me that nothing will ever work out at all. Now I have no faith in myself or my work at all. I'm afraid that everything was in vain, that I worked in vain. That in the end I'll have to publish the book myself, and I really don't want to do that.

I really want to get into a publishing house, but when you're a beginner author, it's very difficult to get through. I hoped that it would be easier with the courses, but it looks like that's not the case. Now I just don't know what to do. Should I try to go to the courses again? Is there any point in that? And keep going until my book is finally chosen? I don't know.

I've already started writing the second volume, I really hoped for a positive result. But it turns out that it's negative despite all my efforts. How else should I try to get noticed? This evening I'm going to train, but not because I want it so much, but because of my despair. Because I understand that I don't need to save my strength anymore, I can just throw myself into the pool headlong. What difference does it make what happens next if nothing comes of my work.

I'll try to fix everything and try to get into publishing again in the fall. But now it's really hard for me to believe that I have any chances. I don't know how best to behave and whether to do anything now to promote the book, because it's not clear whether anyone will take it. And if they don't take it, and I create a blog for it, what then?

Have a great day everyone!