A Heavy Feeling in Black and White

26 days ago

This morning felt different from the others.
I woke up with a strange heaviness, like the feeling you get after a nightmare you can’t fully remember, only this time it feels as if it might be happening somewhere in real life. For the past two days, that sense has been quietly following me around, like a shadow I can’t shake off.

Instead of staying inside my head, I decided to go out for a walk and bring my camera. I didn’t look for bright flowers or cheerful scenes today. My eyes were drawn to darker corners of the garden—layers of leaves overlapping, tangled vines, and small details that usually blend into the background.

In the photos, I focused on texture and shape: the fern-like leaves with rough edges, the long thin stems hanging down, and even a leaf with holes and blemishes. They may look ordinary at first glance, but in black and white, every curve, vein, and imperfection becomes more visible. The overall tone is darker than my usual images, and I think that’s why it matches my mood so well.

Black and white has a way of simplifying things. It removes the distractions of color and leaves only light, shadow, and feeling. Somehow, looking through the viewfinder made the heavy feeling a little easier to carry.

I’m still not sure what this strange mood means, but at least I was able to turn it into something I can share.

I hope your day feels lighter than mine, and that you also find small moments to capture—whatever they may be.