Ladies of Hive Challenge #297: My Hidden Emotions and Feelings

Emotions are everywhere, feelings will be affected and also our body. That is how powerful the emotions will be. For me, emotions are getting wild to myself because I cannot easily shared my feelings to others. I felt very shy everytime when I planned to share my feelings or emotions to other people. The first thing comes up to my mind is that if I shared my emotions or feelings maybe others will judge me. For today's post as part of ladies of hive challenge , allow me to share what are the emotions And Feelings I have in my life. This emotions is related from my Family only, nothing else.

There are three main big reasons why I have lots of emotions and feelings to myself and I really had difficult times sharing this to other especially my Parents;

• Sadness
• Guilt
• Anger

Sadness is one of the emotions I have in my life, this is one of the hardest and difficult I really want to share to my Parents and to all of my closest friends here. Sometimes Because of the Sadness I have, crying is the best way to ease the pain while listening worship songs or any songs that is very soothing or calm songs. Sadness is very related to me because my Father and Mother always quarrelling with one another. Even in a small problems in life they quarrelled with one another, quarrelling is not a solutions to the problem but they already covered with anger.

Guilt is the Second emotions and feelings I have and it is very hard to share. Sometimes I really felt guilt to my Parents specially when I was in highschool. I lied to them specially when I want money, they instantly gave me some money for my Projects not knowing that I only lied to them just to have lots of money for my snacks. Until today as I finished my School, I still felt guilt of what I have done to them.

Anger is very difficult to show to other especially to my Parents. Even if they mistaken about some situations and blaming me even if I did not doing it, instead of having anger, I only cried inside of my Room. It is very difficult to show my anger to my Parents because I really respect them. Even if I have guilt them for lying few times. I realized it now that is why Anger is very difficult to show and expressed to them.

What Makes Me Easy to Share?

Once I went to the Church to attend Church Mass, and after the sacred ceremony, I approached our Priest. I asked him that there are lots of bothering things on my mind and I also asked him what should I do to make me peaceful in mind? They straightly answered me if Anger, Hate, Guilt and Sadness are some primary comes to your mind, let it go and voice out in calm and good ways. As for that I Keep myself quite and think what the priest answered me. By that, I slowly shared the emotions to my Parents in calm way so no one will be offense and they feel sorry to me.

Now, I really felt very calm to my mind I already voicing out my hiding feelings and emotions and all it are gone and feel better. Keeping this kind of feelings really makes ourselves unfocused on everyday life, our mind struggled and sometimes stress and depression. It must be shared to other the feelings and emotions we have so they can give any golden advice and it is for us to balance the suggestion they give if it is very useful to make us feel better always.

Until next posts, have a nice day to all of us.

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