Well, I'm trying

Happy Tuesday 😄

How's everyone? I badly want to go to the beach but I don't have extra money to spend for the fare. Actually the beach is not that far from our house but it takes two rides, and it'll cost me about $3 back and forth. For some it's not that much but as I've said, I don't have extra. I need to save up because I'm still looking for work.

Actually, I am outside right now because I paid our internet provider. I want to walk and stroll around but I don't enjoy this kind of activity. I mean I really want to go home 😭 But I want to practice my social skills 🥴 I know I need this. I am not an introvert but definitely not an extrovert either. The pandemic and lock down made me more of an introvert tho, now I don't initiate conversation and it's difficult for me to order and stuff, so I am trying to do things on my own again.

I am bad at directions too and I kinda panic easily so I walk around and try to familiarise myself with the establishments and streets. Imagine, I lived here for almost 23 years but I still get lost from time to time 😭 that's how frequent I am at home.

I hope when my friends become available we can go to the beach together and I hope if that time comes, I have money and free schedule. I want to share the words of God with my friends but I seldom meet them, so I really have to grab the chance if they ask me to go out. I know that being able to connect with people is necessary most especially if I start to work, so I am really trying. I am trying.