Still not a hugger, though. Man, I feel that. Aside from the small number of people I care about, I don't want people touching me. Spent years not having any physical contact with another human outside of fights, which probably doesn't help. The sad-first is something that is foreign to me, I'm curious to see what you discover about it. For me it's more laugh-first, a la "What doesn’t kill you gives you a lot of unhealthy coping mechanisms and a really dark sense of humour."