W.E [123] - My Experience.

All my life, all I have ever known is shying away from the camera. I am a camera-shy kind of person, so clumsy being filmed or having my photograph taken.

It sounds amusing, right?

Now that this world is at its pinnacle of modernization and a simplistic lady like me is feeling disassociated from it and the dramas. I hate to mention it, but " I'm an old soul " seems iffy! sought to mean that I am a reincarnation of someone, that's granny... correct me if I am wrong pfft! _{who believes in such stories?... except my dad! scoff!}

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1. Is there something worse than dying? What is it and why do you feel it is worse? Explain your answer.

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Answer:"

I was literally forced!

This is the tricky part, I love to take beautiful shots of photographs for sure. But taking those photographs, standing, posing, hands-in-the-air, peace gestures bla bla bla...
Nah, not me! No matter how I try, I end up procrastinating...next time, I would say, argh! I guess the portrayal of the actual envisions of that photo gets into my brain, while the outcome is not so me ... Is that how I look?? huh??

This is worse than dying for me rofl!
This is a bummer trust me!

So this is the real gist. Yesterday my friend came to my apartment so that both of us would go together to school for a project we were yet to finish in school, I bathed, got dressed, and asked her to check me out.

Her complimentary words swept me off my feet not knowing it was a way to trick me into taking some cool shots, at first, she knew I wasn't down for it but her persuasion won and she cringed putting up with some shots.

I felt uneasy about taking those pictures and I can't give a thorough and vivid explanation for that philosophy. When I take photos of myself, it only happens when I am in an incredible mood of feeling myself. If I am pressured you might not emanate satisfaction from taking pictures of me haha.

So, yes she took those photos and I loved them♥️.

Well typically, I frown or stay in an absurd posture until I start getting those pictures vibes, the smiles asf!

Just don't take me pictures unaware please🥺

Or you could hear me rant beautifully hehe...

So these pictures are mine♥️

Guess what...??

She never allowed me to take pictures of her…rofl...she ran away! haha 😂😂 I let that slide anyways lol.

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2. When were you the most disappointed in yourself? Explain the situation, how you dealt with it, and what outcomes were generated.

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About last year, I had a roommate. We went through the same university together but with distinct courses of study. We have been living together for the past three years and most times we talk a lot.

Our relationship was based on mutuality, being that close to her allowed me to have some conversations with her. The hostel we occupied was opposite another hostel and a grown man lived there.

He started asking me out for friendship and relationships but I stylishly rejected it. I'm someone who doesn't feel uneasy dating someone opposite my home.

After his approach, I told my other roommate about it and I told her specifically that I would never be his girl and more reasons why he was a dirty person and that makes me irritated. He's too loud for my liking! This was a private conversation and she also told me not to date him anyway.

The next day that same guy called me and began telling me everything I had told her in secret and that broke me. I felt disappointed in myself so much that I wished I could turn the hands of time. She used my own words against me and not only that she started seeing that same guy and even started sleeping with him.

I felt stabbed in the heart and I became very bitter, why would she do that? Why not tell the truth that she wants to make out with him? Would I even stop her? What I figured is that folks cannot be like you... she betrayed a friend for over four years for some guy.

It hurts me so much but I overcame it by just playing along and smiling with them. I swore with my life that I won't ever be so close to someone like that ever again, no more calls close to her, no more private things shared with her. I go round and round the circle when talking with her. That's how I overcame it aside from that I would have fought her but why I asked myself? For a man? Nah!

_{This post is in response to the #WEEKEND-ENGAGEMENT topic, "Worse than dying". If you would like to know more about it and the community, click here.}

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